I want to lead a beautiful life - tangled in intimate intricacies -
Fully immersed in the exquisite awkwardness of being human
a life that in the final analysis, is measured
not by outward accomplishments, or the number of likes on a web page,
but by incremental moments - slowly gathered and truly celebrated.
I seek a life that shines in reflection of my souls reckoning -
yearning for laughter of the deepest order,
while embracing the sorrow of unbearable sadness -
sinking slowly to it's depths before rising, humbled with compassion.
I want to contemplate the unfathomable beauty of my own delicate heart
taking refuge in a vast sea of wisdom that resides at its core,
connecting deeply to its innermost mysteries -
discovering its rhythm reverberating throughout nature,
I want to explore the authentic essence of each encounter -
and savor real communication that unfolds when hearts engage -
a sacred unspoken exchange,
nourished by attentive presence and insightful perception -
that births grace silently into the world.
and when grief occupies my heart, and anguish floods my body -
when certainty and conviction are obscured and I loose sight of meaning in suffering,
I want to summon courage and find solace
as tears of surrender and acceptance flow - releasing me back to wholeness
When the years gather around me, I will listen for the echo of deep laughter
resounding clearly in my memories - coloring them like the evening sky.
I will open my arms to embrace elements I wrestled with in earlier years,
finding the terms of peace settled within.
And I will strive to live my days with an open heart
relishing the times I stayed present to the truth of who I am
until the rivers of discernment carry me deeper-
where heartbeats merge in a single pulse, and love holds all to itself.